Standard? Evolved?

This is my favourite spot even though I RARELY watch TV! We have astro but only switch on when Mak Engku/Pak Engku came or other relatives. We mostly came back late from work or we chat with bibik in the kitchen, swim till late... then, tidur!

Its a Phillips set - tak de la mahal... tapi, sedap mata memandang.... bila beli? Huh... dah 5 bulan dah pun.... tapi masih tak familiar dengan functions dia..

Ok lah... and while I was uploading the image, I read this somewhere this morning... regarding achieveing happiness in life. Perhaps you guys can add more from these lists...



1 Ketaqwaan

No doubt, this is the most important foundation - my sister once told me.. IKHLAS untuk buat apa juga.... without expecting any returns. She said, IKHLAS is just like when you spitt, you forget where, when & why you did that. Does it make sense??

2 Kasih sayang

This is what I have been searching for many many years. I pray and pray to Allah to give mak and abah... a family that I can return to. A happy life that I can lead my life in peace. I need not to ronda ronda in the shop lots during Hari Raya... what I need is a HOME! SINCERE LOVE and CARED by others. Alhamdulillah, after many many years - more than for about 36 years...... I got it ALL !!! THANKS ALLAH!

3 Kesetiaan

Hmmm... this is hard to explain. Setia? Must be foundation to that.. And for all, its hard to get a true friend that can laugh with us and cry with us... not laught at us.. or cry at us... And Kesetiaan is all about satisfying the inner needs. Kalau the inner needs tu difahami, insya allah, setia will come along. And I am glad to have a family that really setia with the family ties. They teach me to appreciate my own life .. how? To be LOYALTY..

4 Komunikasi dialogis

I do appreciate all types of communication... and because of communication'lah I am what I am today. Dulu, I was a person yang tak suka nak explain - and explanation is part of communication skill. I used to mengamuk when people do not understand what I am trying to say.. until one day, adik told me that I have to explain to others what I want. Furthur more I am 95% right brain... and now, alhamdulillah... I can explain to others what I want so they will understand my needs. Tak de ler makan hati jer....


5 Keterbukaan

This is another thing. Mak Engku and Pak Engku have this. They accept me for what I am. They are open and want to listen (open tapi tak nak listen wat per kan??)

6 Kejujuran

Yeah.. this is important too. Jujur... cam ner nak explain bab ni ya.. oh ya.. One thing that I notice that I will say what I think I need to say. It may be hurt but it will make a different to others. JUJUR is the key for all kindness. Once tak jujur, once menipu, org dulu dulu kata "siakap senohong gelama ikan duri, cakap bohong, lama lama mencuri!"

7 Kesabaran

Waurrrhhhhhh.... sabar. Complex, and abstract... But I learnt how to be sabar. Insya allah.. Ada psychologist kat umah kan..... so tengah training nih! eekekekekeke

What's your opinion about this? Perhaps you can share your few cents here!

More about MK and ML

These are some photos of MK's day out with us. He was playing the cars and ML was chit-chatting with us. As far as we were with ML, she only talked about her life, experiences and knowledge org dulu-dulu eg: kalau boleh masa berjalan-jalan especially at night, bawa sedikit kapur sireh.... the hantus and jembalangs 'takut' dengan kapur sireh. I dont know what people says but I think ML can be a good listener and advisor too. Cuma mungkin the youngers just lack of interests in the olders and they forget that some day, one day, they will be like one........

Who says that MK is reserved when at his first meeting?

Hmmmmm yummy - sodap ya MK???

Stress?

Last few weeks my sister and I worked so hard. Its nothing much to do with the 'peralihan kuasa' but perhaps ter-effect-lah juga. Why? All the works and responsibilities carried on our shoulder must be go on no matter how the political turmoil may interfere our lives. And the 'kuasa' that we are looking at here is the 'kuasa' of knowledge - exploring the human mind and thinking -

'Kuasa' here is more on internal satisfaction. When we have the internal satisfaction, we can contribute to others. And this happens most in individuals who WORK for others, LIVE for others and share their HAPPINESS with others. I want to be like that..... my sister too. And both of us share the same ambition, same mission and same vision.

But we need some extra strength. The strength from INSIDE. The strength that could give us the 'kuasa' to do all these.... and that comes from prayers.

Huhuhuhu........ tak mau den jadi cam ni... mampuihhhh...........


Alhamdulillah, at the moment, we are under control. Mak Engku and Pak Engku always check on us. They are our Blood Pressure Life Machine. They are like the breath we take. Their prayers are our heart beat.

Kalau idak, kene laa ikut nasihat doktor kek bawah nih....... tak mau den..

Another Day Out

This is ML's only grandson-this was a week out for ML and her grandson-normally, during this time no one can ganggu ML because she will be in a 'honeymoon' mood. One thing that realised during this day out with ML and MK (ML's grandson) is that both of them enjoying themselves especially MK. And according to ML, MK is not easy to please-he will reserve himself before he shows his trueself but time dah tak de tunggu-tunggu dah.

We picked up ML after work - about 6.30pm, MK was malu-malu but he terus salam me and adik. When he saw our car, he said:

MK: This is KIA. I dont like KIA (dia masuk dalam kereta)

MK: I never been in this car - its like my car - but its ....... (apa ye dia kata... tapi maksud dia, kete ni rendah) pastu dia tengok belakang....dia kata:

MK: Oh... its a little bit longer than mine..

------session ended with him, ML took over the konti-----

tetibe je MK tanya adik:

MK: Where is the break?

Adik: ---- dia pun explain laa... siap tunjuk demo lagi-- ye lah... nak tunjuk KIA pun ada break! (kelakar laah tengok adik bertonyeh dengan budak kecik)

MK syok sbb adik ikut jalan dalam... quite hilly ...so dia kata

MK: we go up and down.....up...and down....

----sampai rumah-----

ML tunjukkan our swimming pool and MK said:

MK: Ours are bigger ....... (dengan slang dia...kekek tension ML dengar ekekek)

ML tunjukkan the studio pulak.....

MK: Thas's not toys - they are instrument...(kene sebijik ML kat cucu dia)

------ So I showed him my car collections and he starts to get excited----- and after that.. he became himself- active giler!!!-----

We had dinner - bibik masak spegeti - MK makan... he said

MK: its too spicy....... (sambil minum air-makan lagi - ML kata, kalau ML masak pedas, dia langsung tak nak makan... ni makan pulak)

ML: its too hot for you MK?

MK: its not hot lah... its spicy! (kekeke kene lagi ML)

bibik keluarkan buah.... ML kata MK tak suka mempelam, MK kata:

MK: I like this. (mempelam)...... (so MK makan sorang-sorang, buat smiley face... macam macam... mmg dia enjoyed the food)

ML: Kemain ko ek... aku beli pelam, ko tak cuit pun...kat sini boleh kata suke pulak! (kekeke ML tensen...kekkekkeek)

----adik tunjuk collection kereta dia dalam almari --- punya laa seronok si MK ---

Adik:These are all my car collections - they are miniatures

MK: (mendengar dgn tekun bila adik exlain dari mana dia dapat kereta kereta kecik ni semua.....until he saw a 'strange' car to his eyes- tetibe dia ketawa) Look at this car - the tyres are big hahahahahah

------ML took over the konti------- mak/abah called

------MK main kereta--------- out of the sudden dia melompat, naik atas adik, peluk adik.!!!! sbb???? nampak kucing! ohhhhhh MK takut kucing rupa nyer!!

After solat magrib, we went to alamanda and in the car MK jadi sangat aktif...bercerita, menyanyi.... cute sangat (CN-jangan jelesssss)

Sampai di alamanda, he hold my hand (iskk.... pelik jugak... nak dia pegang haku nih.)

When I have to wait for ML, he ran to adik, and pegang adik - nyanyi nyanyi - lompat lompat - entah apa dia berbual dengan adik - tinggal kan ML..... so I walked with ML, MK with adik holding hands..

From behind sometimes we saw MK and adik was whispering something... tak tau apa... and he jumped, sang, jumped...

------dah dapat apa yg dihajati---- we stop and had soem ice cream......

-------dalam kereta, MK was so excited, lupa dgn barang yg dia beli tadi, and he played with me... siap wrestling lagi dalam kereta!!! ........

------ sampai rumah ML -------- dia bye bye.... and give us his cute hugsss...........

ada lagi few pics in our camera.... cuma tak sempat dl - perhaps nanti lah...

This is my ENGINE

This is the ONLY cat that my sister loves most - after ABANG. She had a very sad moment when ABANG passed away - and that time, ABANG listened to her - "kalau abang nak mati, mati kat rumah tau...akak boleh tanam abang... ada bunga" hmmmmm LUCKY that she didnt proceed with her 'noble' intention to 'KERAS' kan ABANG!!!!!!!


And me too, as usual, terpengaruh dengan kasih sayang adik pada ENGINE - dari geram - because both of us will always berebut bantal - since ENGINE likes to sleep on my pillow!!!! and as if that is HIS !!!!

ENGINE too, will drink my water beside my bed - HE is CONDITIONED to drink the water from my cawan - even though I have put a special mangkuk which muat muat muka dia... tapi tak nak jugak.... iskkkkk GERAM DENGAN DIA!!!

And today, HE came back WITHOUT his 'neck-tie' ...... mana dia tinggalkan agaknya!!!!!!! and akak promised him to get a new 'neck-tie' -- and what I could say is... EEEEIIII - mengada-ngadanya !!

But I still love ENGINE - he is still cute... and my little BUDDY at home !!! Meeeaaaoowwwwww
kekekekekkekekeke

When the sandals getting bigger

I dont know why I choose this topic. But as you grow older, your feet are getting bigger. And thats mean, you have to get a new pair of shoes/sandals every now and then. Does this rule goes along with our ambitions? Are our ambitions grow bigger and bigger or it will remain as they are until we manage to achieve what we want to achieve? Any ideas? Perhaps you can share yours.....

Same old stories???

Roses are red my love

Violets are blue

Sugar is sweet my love

But not

As sweet as you

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Remember this piece? I used to sing this song... and whistle it all day long..... and until today, its in my juke box.

And lately, I met some of my old lost relatives, and friends. Some never changed. But the others... changed. Why? And until now I have no answer to it. Even if I know the answers, let it be floating in my mind. And some of the questions asked to me dont make sense at all. Why they asked such questions...... But these dialogues will remain as part of my life jokes:

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Antara soalan-soalan yang ditanya bila mula mula jumpa.

"Kau dah habis degree ke belom"

dalam hati.......macam nak cakap, tak tau ke org dah buat PhD pun!!

"Aku dah poi mekah dah"

maksudnya?? should I call you Hajah? or what?

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Questions related to car:

"Kete ni ko beli cash ke hutang?"

OMG!!!!! apa jenis soalan laa nih...

"Kete sapa ni??"

adui...... macam nak hempuk pun ada.. dalam hati, tak kan laaa kete sewa kot???

Jumpa-jumpa je, terus cakap;

"Aku dah tukar kete dah.... aku pakai PERSONA"

hek eleeehh........... (dalam hati je laaa)

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Related to my house;

"Mana ko dapek duit boli umah beso beso nih"

lerr.... usaha laaa... tak kan duduk diam duit jatuh dari langit??

"Ko dah beli rumah ke? Buat apa beli rumah? Kan belum kawin?

Laaaa......tak kan la org kawen je boleh beli rumah???? - yg kelakar tu, siap tanya lagi:

"Kat umah ko tu ada pinggan mangkuk tak? dapur ada tak? katil?kerusi semua ada?"

Ya Rabbi....... ni yg tak jadi ngaku kawan nih....

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About my work:

Rindu belum hilang lagi, tiba tiba terus tanya.......

"Ko keje kat mana sekarang?"

So, bila jawab keje kat ********** terus kata;

"Boleh laa tolong ******. Laki aku ada ***** nanti ko tolong ******"

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Kecik hati kadang-kadang...... and I learnt that some people dont really IKHLAS nak jumpa kita.... as P.Ramlee said "Baik ada makna haaaaa"

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Lain-lain hal:

"Sopan ko ye sekarang ni"

hummm....... abis, you want me to yell at you???

"Ko dulu tak pandai kan?"

and you aspect me not to be what I am today???

"Ko ni takyah laa sopan sangan cakap dengan den...."

Laaa....aku mmg sopan laa... walau tak sebeberapa.... they just dont get it!!!

"Kau dulu masa sekolah tak pandai kan?"

Hek eleeh....... cita zaman dulu-dulu..... dalam citer hindustan hero kalah dulu beb!

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I wonder WHY people asked me this question again and again?? AM I TOO STUPID?? Come'on.... I was alone, lived alone, no parental supervision, and yet, I managed to take care of myself - tak laaaa jadi 'left out' masa sekolah... and most important thing is... I MAKE MY LIFE FAR MORE BETTER THAN OTHERS !!!! PhD holder beb!!!!!

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Pelik kan manusia nih??? I have better life now, I have mom, dad, sister, brother, sister in law, nenek, ucu, utih, and many others who loves me so much and accept me as

WHAT I AM, WHO I AM and not

what I have!!!

I love you all and thanks for not being pathetic like the others!

Vincent

When I drove to work this morning... I listened to this song. It touches my inner insight - perhaps related to the picture I took yesterday.....

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

The line says :"Look out on a summer's day." .... which is an actual view point, it is strictly from his mind. These are references to other Van Gogh paintings.
Flaming Flowers: The Sunflower Series
Swirling Clouds: Starry Night
Field of Amber Grain: Wheat Field with Crows
Weathered Faces: The Potato Eaters

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

This is Van Gogh's tragic Death - Could not imagine how he cut off his ears - because of schizoprenia..... and he came back to his room... and finnally took his life - Van Gogh attempted suicide by shooting himself in the chest, which ultimately led to his death two days later.Even though he loved painting, his paintings could never love him back.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Van Gogh - Knowing his paintings, drawings and writings - they are everlasting and will never "forget" the style that created them. They are Van Gogh's eyes that watch the world. This is all metaphorically speaking though.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Finally we come to the conclusion of realizing Van Gogh's eternal struggle with insanity.
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,How you suffered for your sanity,How you tried to set them free.They would not listen, they're not listening still.Perhaps they never will...

We have 2 moons in a night??????

This was taken in one fine evening.... I like it so much!

Funny things around us..

This is funny - hmmm may be not for others, but at least these pictures make me smile.

And this is a good ads. Eheheh reverse psychology huh??

Lama Lama

Aint got time to do all these favourite things to do.... I need to manage my self so that I have time for my hobbies... Huhh... work too hard lately..

Classic Rocking Chair has arrived!!!!!

Hmm so much so I was inflenced by my sister - she loves Classic English Concept - she has this in her mind - a house painted in white, lots of fresh flowers, white covers and furniture, fluffy sofa pillows, patch works, rose and more roses!, lavender (she has this in our little garden)../and her last wish was - CLASSIC ROCKING CHAIR. She didnt really looking forward to have this in this point of time... but she ALWAYSSSS talk about it..... and it's STUCK in my head!!! And as if, I pulak yang ber ia ia hendakkan benda ni .... iskkk..... (hmmmm I wonder of she has been using her 'hypnotising' thing... to me...) And wallooooppppp....... I got his via e-bay, called the salesperson... within two weeks, dah sampai - and of course laa... A SUPRISE for my sister!!!!

Masih dalam kotak - I worried if it comes on as DIY - but nguper nguper nya... pasang udah..

Dalam kotak, ada lagi balut.

This what I meant by Classical Rocking Chair.

It has been raining these days... and my intention to swim and sleigh into my pool remains an intention! And during these days as well, in this kind of weather it reminds me to MY FRIEND FADHIL…imagine, when I was Standard 5, he was only Standard 1 !!! Just like adik dha and her brother adik jan..........

He is Wan Mohd Fadhil bin Maamor…. the son of Amoi Kedai Kurung .. and my brother Dato’ Dr. Mohd Nor definately cant earase this name from his mind... (I think laaa)

Almost everyday we spent our time together... I was with a bike, he would sit at the passenger's compartment, being an obidient friend to me. It was only him that I had that time.... we would sat at a corner, looked into the blue sky... wonder our mind... sometimes creative imagination.... and sometimes scaries.... and that would chase us out of nothing...

We would create fancy thoughts.... nakjadi scientist la..nak buat itu lah nak buat ini.. nak beli kereta, nak travel the world together.....

Well, there was something that brought us together when my sister got a message from some that there is another person was looking for me. She let me know, get the person's name and details, tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa it was his sister... and then we get connected again (hey....... dont get us wrong okay!!! we were just playmate... and he is not more and a brother to me.)

He is now a lawyer, working in a Firm

Get back to 1992…. (I think... hmm not too old to forget those things) We went to Penang with his sister with a kereta sewa.........and I remember telling him this........"Orang macam kita ini DIl, kena belajar sungguh-sungguh. Baru lah orang respek, Siapalah kita ni..tak siapa yang peduli.. Ko ni mesti terus belajar..tak ada duit sekarang tak apa..susah sekarang taka pa..nanti tua kita senang..kita boleh travel sana sini naik kapal terbang..kan kita dulu selalu cakap dah travel keliling dunia bila besar. Engkau mesti belajar..ambil Law jadi lawyer…"

And when I met him on 2004 when his sister got me via internet, he was a law student, and in 2009, he has his own firm!!!!! Tahniah Fadhil! Pengalaman hidup mendewasakan kita. Tahniah Chilhood friend..My lil Bro!

Hmmmm and I am writing this, because I am proud of him... proud of being able to get out from difficulties that we together had... Hmmmm just what my sister said "Some time, people have to pay for happiness" and "there is always rainbows after the rainning days" - as today... I see more rainbows .. alhamdulillah....

More on Bakawali

Alhamdulillah... kata orang kalau bunga ni berbunga, banyak rezeki..... moga moga begitulah hendakNYA

Gifts from the Royalty

This was kept in my laptop for quite sometime. It was I think end of last year..... my aunty (ML) from Pak Ungku's side, took us to the royalty's palace in JB. Well, I never thought that I would use the bahasa istana... even though I have been teaching Bahasa Melayu and bahasa istana to my students. Heheheh... macam hidup dalam zaman Hang Tuah pulak.

Alhamdulillah, she loves all of us (the anak buah yg datang laa...) and TYHM gave us some gifts for remembrance.... ekkeke.... terharu rasanya rakyat jelata seperti hamba di panggil dengan panggilan mesra 'AD' je... :)

To YHM - thanks so much for the hospitality......

Saturday Sunday

Lots of things to do and to settle down. And yet, I have to compromise with the things I used to do. And of all the buziness I have to bravely face... my sister did some 'kezutan'. I cant remember if I told you guys about my sister has misplace her 5k cash!!!! I was a big headche for all of us. We search high and low, bibik sent sms to his the other half to do some spiritual rituals... and it has been months.... we still could not see the 5k cash. Hmmmm.....berat mata memandang, berat lagi mata memikul. Poor adik......And this morning, as usual, she will dress up beautifully, walk away from home to somewhere that both of us could concentrate doing our paper works... taraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa she smiled, 'raba raba' and she found the 5k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nak ketawa pun ada, nak marah pun ada....... but Allah has kept the money for us today!! Nak jolly??? naaa..................there is something more urgent to settle with that 5k!

Kaki Ku Kaki Kuku Kaki

I have problem with my kaki - especially the tumit... arghhh.... i knew that its because my kaki has been used so much. Just imagine.. when I was about 10-12 years old, my old man asked me to run every morning and evening for more than 1 kilometre a day! He would cycled till the end - awaiting for me and let me run again, back to my house... and for many months... he married with the widow where he used to wait for me. Eversince, he left the house and stayed with my new mom. Huh..... its still fresh in my mind how hard was I to let him go. I hanged onto his legs, persuaded that he never go there and be with me at my late mom's house where we used to live as a big family. But I was a child - with no strength - my brother handled me let my hands go off from my dad's leg... crying just let him go away.. until faded from my eyes side. But I never let that pulled me down - infact the trainning let me aware and awake that I have to stand by my own. Ya... be strong and stronger.


And I had to get a massager.... but that didnt help much. It may ease the pain. Huh... I am not so worry now because I have Mak Ungku dan Pak Ungku that would take care of me. Their love and care make me alive..... ya.... alive !

These feet are my sisters.... she always accompany me where ever I go. Thanks adik... thanks.

Yang Pelik dan Menarik

Umbut yang besar!

Ayam pakai baju. ekekk kiut kan?

Sambutan DPP 4/1

Balik balik - kami di sambut dengan resepi dari jiran sebelah... ekekke tengkiuk tengkiuk.......

Makan Makan Yam Sengggggggggggggggg

Aduih... at time moment... I just need more space in my tummy - the food was sooooooo delicious!!

Sibu Reception

Do you understand what they say??

FRONT PAGE

Other pages.

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We just came back from Sibu, to attend adik's 3rd reception - fuyooooooo ... this time, Anna's side. Hmmm their reception came out on the front page of Borneo's News Paper - 3 different coloums !!

Anna, Adik, Pak Engku and Mak Engku

Cambodia - Extra the Extraneous

We went to Cambodia somewhere in 2005 (?) I need to check back the diary - but I found these photos in my hp and the memories refreshed instantly. Cambodia - huh..... teached me something about life, war and peace - and the movie I attached here - taught me the value of friendship - a true , deeply sincere friendship and alhamdulllah... I have that most priceless meaning of friendship in my life ... Thank God, Thank To You.