Mukaddimah
Assalamualaikum...telah terlalu lama aku tidak menulis..hari ini aku menulis kembali..mengasah dan mengilap semula segala aspek linguistik yang masih aku miliki setelah Tragedi 30 OKTOBER 2010 yang membawa banyak hikmah dalam hidupku..Catatan suara hati ini sekadar monolog dalaman agar diri ini tenang selepas kuzahirkan segala yang terdetik dalam mindaku yang masih samar ini. Pertamanya..lafaz syukurku kehadzrat Illahi kerana hingga ke saat ini aku masih bernafas meskipun banyak kesangsaraan fizikal dan mental yang perlu kutanggung selepas keretaku dirempuh oleh sebuah kereta Sutera hitam yang melayang dari arah yang bertentangan terbang merentasi pembahagi jalan di highway Pricinct 16 Putrajaya ketika aku mahu pulang dari pejabat. Masihku ingat detik itu, jam menunjukkan pukul 4.45 petang. Aku baru sahaja dijemput oleh adikku Raja K RMK (anak kepada Mak Ungku J yang memeliharaku saling tak tumpah spt anaknya sendiri..alhamdulillah)yang baru pulang dari UPM bagi menyiapkan Ph.D keduanya. (Sesungguhnya dia adalah adik yang amat baik dan bertanggungjawab selain drp layak digelar scholar sejati kerana telah mendapat dua degree, tiga master dan bakal meraih ph.d kedalam usia yang masih muda.)

Hari Pertama Di HOSPITAL PUTRAJAYA
Aku sempat menjerit menyebut " dikkkkkk keretaaaaa dari sebelahhhh!" sebelum pandangan dan deria nrasaku di matikan sekita oleh Allah SAW (sesungguhnya jika tidak berlaku sedemikian pastinya sampai kesaat ini aku akan trauma ketika melihat sebarang kereta di jalan raya. Seterusnya aku hanya sedar orang bertanya sayup sayup kedengaran " minta kebenaran untuk gunting blazer puan ye?" dan aku cuba mengangguk lemah.Aku kembali tidak sedar..sehingga aku terdengar suara lembut menegurku.."Tahu tak puanimana?" Aku cuba menggelengkan kepala, namun tengkukku amat sakit dan terasa ada benda keras menghalang pergerakan. Aku ingat tika aku bertanya "Dimana ni?" Begitu penat dan sakit seluruh tubuh aku rasakan. "tahutak waktu bila ni, puan?" tanya suara itu lagi. Aku ternampak budak muda seperti seorang doktor layaknya. Aku terus bertanya 'pukul berapa sekarang?" dia menjawab pukul 11 malam. "Ya Allah kan tadi aku baru balik dari bekerja. Pandangankku kembali gelap. Bila aku sedar semui la aku terasa seluruh badanku terasa renyuk. Kedua dua kakiku amat berat. Begitu juga tangan kiriku. Aku pun bertanya " kenapa tangan ni berat? Kenapa kaki8 ni berat" tiba-tiba ku terdengar suara Mak (Mak Ungku) " Patah ak..letak simen tulah berat". "Macamana emak ada disisi , emak kan di JB? Otakku tidak lagi upaya memproses apa apa maklumat. Apakah komputer mindaku jammed? OMG..It does not compute.
Pandanganku kembali gelap.......aku terlena dalam kesakitan yang amat sangat.
Hari ke Dua
Malam itu entah berapa kali aku diambil darah dan di check tekanan darah ku..rasanya paling tidak pun empat kali ..jam 9,11 , 3 jam 5..Jam 5 nurse datang untuk tukar cadar...aku masih dalam keadaan separa sedar. Bila aku sedar kulihat seorang Dr. yang amat muda (dalam lingkungan 24 tahun)berdiri disisiku..sebesar anak angkatku Aping dan Ai Mie yang masih menuntut di UPM dalam bidang kejuruteraan dan arkitek. Dr. yang kurus, putih, berambut panjang itu memperkenalkan dirinya sebagai Dr Asther. Dia menjelaskan keadaanku. Kaki kananku dan tangan kiriku patah.Aku terus mbertanya keadaan adikku. Rupanya adik berada dikatil dihujung kakiku. Aku cuba melihat wajahnya. Macam biasa. Dia tampak tenang. Adikku sering tenang sebagaimana sakit sekalipun.Itu yang aku kagumi. Alhamdsulillah..dia selamat.Dr. Asther bertanyakan itu dan ini..aku cuba menjawab sedaya upayaku..dia bertanya tentang kerjaku..aku ..malangnya aku tidak ingat apa yang kujawab.`Selepas DR Aster pergi aku bertanya apa yang berlaku kepada mak. Mak menjelaskan bahawa ada kereta terbabas melintasi pembahagi jalan lalu menghentam keretaku...kemudian keretaku berpusing ik lalu dihentam oleh dua buah kereta dari belakangku. Aku terpererosok dibawah dashboard..Sebentar kemudian aku didatangi sekumpulan doktor.Yang aku dengar Dr.Asther memperkenalkan aku kepada mereka.." This is Dr. Norzah... she involved.....bla bla bla..." Terlalu banyak soal jawab..kenapa mindaku tidak cergas menangkap seperti biasa? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Tengahari itu begitu ramai orang berkunjung dan aku begitu rancak menerangkan keadaanku ..sebenarnya ketika itu aku masih LALOK....*Sebenarnya ketika ini pun masih banyak yang aku lupa...Kepalaku sering pusing seperti roller coaster dan tiba -tiba brek...dan aku tercampak rasanya... Adakalanya berpusing seperti globe..dalam keadaan yang lain pula aku seolah olah berada diatas jongkang jongket gergasi..OMG!(bersambung)

THOSE WERE THE DAYS

Alhamdulillah... she is showing so much improvement....

"I wanna go to the market..... today.... I want to masak Caremel...."



"... wanna follow??..... tapi bakul ni tak muat lah.."



"My daring look" kekekeke

Persediaan Pra Raya

Hhehehehhee puasa baru 4 days and yet, I am talking about Raya.... this is adik dhada's fine touch....







Hasil seni adik dhada .... hmmmmmm bila laaa dia ni nak 'balik' Malaysia...

Reunion.... Fast and Furious

Havoc giler...



See you guys .... pok pek pok pek...



Hmm.......



Maleh nak komen... sbb tu den tulis 'fast and furious' ....













Why fast and furious? because.......time flies so fast..... and yet, we cannot see how 'huge' we became....

One fine evening...

Alhamdulillah, finnaly after I had my operation, I find a time to visit my brother 'Abang Zul'. Kak Yati & Abg Zul both of them are very nice to me especially during my university time........hmmm... too many things to share... but let it me mine...

Abg Zul.. take care please... you are needed in the family... and I love you.

Time and again....

** Some one... very farrrrrr away.... email me this old picture of his/her family....

I wonder in 10-20-30 years time.... our picture will look as old as this one.. and I wonder how magnificient the picture/photo in the future... perhaps 3D kot??? cemana ek??? or may be, je like Ibrahim Pendek as in movie "pendekar bujang lapuk"... the image is talking!

THOSE WERE THE DAYS

I was browsing the internet and at the same time was looking for my old old pictures... yet, I found a few and scan it immediately...



Look innocent huh...... but it didnt reflect the truth.. we were the most 'gila gila' in class... ekekkekeke kelakar mengenangkan zaman ituewwww....



Jangan tak percaya pula ya!



kekekeke... am i still look the same?




THOSE WERE THE DAYS

Me and My Laugh Therapy

Laugh therapy has been introduced in India and has significant role in life. Adik Dhada's research interest is inspiring and lead me to learn more about Laugh Therapy. Now, it has been almost 3 years I have been sharing the technique to the crowd and happy that the technique benefited them... at least in a point of their lives. So, Lantak Therapy (Adik Dhada's Approach during at critical stress) and Laugh Therapy are like a weighing machine... balance each other so that one may not fall into making wrong decision. My last presentation was at KDN.

Busy doing...

It has been such sometime that I have not spare my time updating this blog. I have a lot to share..... and yet, too busy to put all my photographic memories in words. First, my sister and I went back to Terachi and do our social work (as usual) at my old old and close friend's school in Negeri Sembilan...We gave talks and motivation to the Year 6 pupils as well as to the teachers. It was a great satisfaction to be with them.

Despite of that, we also brought cupcakes to the teachers - well at least they felt appreciated. Even though they are not teaching us, they have nothing to do with us (except few of them : their elder brothers/sisters were my schoolmate) but their time and effort to teach the pupils are priceless... dari tak tau membaca lah... sampai tau membaca...

Its fun to tell them what is happenining outside their school - I mean outside from their kampung.. hmmm... example:

"Masa cuti sekolah, kamu pergi bercuti kemana?"

-semua angkat tangan- so I asked one of them...

"OK... awak pergi mana?"

"Pergi pasar Kuala Pilah Cikgu"

Err... do you get what I mean??

This is not only happen in that school... it happened few occasions in other schools .. for instance.. there was a time we went to a school at Sungai Besar... the same question... and they answered almost the same... "Pergi ikut emak ke Kuala Selangor" "Pergi pasar" "Pergi sawah" ... may be for them, that is a true HOLIDAY... merayau rayau... its totally different from sekolah bandar... the same question.. different answer!

Adik dhada was interviewed LIVE at RADIO24 (BERNAMA RADIO) 26 May 2010. ekekek it was adhoc decision. Someone - the Editor ke apa tah... called her and was asking about being on-air and she was fine with it... suddenly after came back from a talk on ART THERAPY at BALAI SENI LUKIS NEGARA, she said she wont be at the konti instead the DJ will call her and interview will be done via phone. ehehheheheeh. The interview took about 15-20 mins... and it was in ENGLISH..

hmmm sometime I envy to see her speaking english so fluent and confident... for me to write this blog pun dah cukup baik... with tons of her courage... so along @ www.norzah.blogspot.com(Dato M.N) excuse me for my english as you wrote in your blog about malay-english... but at least I try.......and I am proud of myself... from Malay-Medium, yet still can have an English blog.. kekekekekeke



**** NAIK HANGEN DGN BLOGSPOT NI... DAH SEJAM DEN UPLOAD GAMBAR.... TAK KUAR KUAR JUGAK.... HUISHHH SO, DEN DECIDE LAIN KALI LAH LETAK GAMBAR

SYUKUR DAN TERIMA KASIH

SYUKUR KPD ALLAH DAN TERIMA KASIH ATAS DOA KELUARGA DAN KAWAN-KAWAN....IM GETTING BETTER NOW..

Malika.....

ada gaya Malika tak???????..........hmmmmuuuuaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh hmmmmuuuuaaaahhhhhhhhhhh

things about .....

more pic when i was in the hospital... now i am feeling much better, mobile and happier.. the pain still exist, but as adik dhada said, i have to live with it... and i promise that i will try to lose weight..... so i will feel healthier...and merrier hehehhehe

Finally its DONE !!!

Alhamdulillah.... finally the date given (17 May 2010) is brought forward to 14 May 2010 -- a long wait --- dah tak tahan dah......

I was so afraid to go for operation (kekekekee ni kes keturunan yo) and that caused the increase of my BP - waduh.....

Mak ungku and Adik Dhada were always at my side, the day admitted until the operation date... they waited for me nearly for 2 hours at the Waiting Room, and followed to the Room (Ward 3C, Room 27)..... mak ungku was the first person waited and give me warm hugs and kisses - I was 'mamai' and 'sedar tak sedar' that time... they said, I was mad at Pak ungku and said "Abah tipu.... kata tak sakit...." hahahhahaha sorry ya bah!! AD tak sedar pun... tak hengat pun cakap cam tuh....

But all in all, semua ok, alhamdulillah.. and thanks for all the prayers.......

SELF KEY PERFORMANCE INDICATOR FOR THIS YEAR

SELF KEY PERFORMANCE INDICATOR FOR THIS YEAR
Time has passed so fast. After itu ini itu ini,MC bla bla bla its already MAY. Huh MAY? How about my KPI for this year? I mean my personal KPI not the actual mean KPI as mentioned by the Government...
1. I have promised Associate Prof Dr. Sofian to write four articles about Mental
Imagery for journals submission.
2. I plan to write two books this year. The book that i am working on is about
Practicle Use of Mental Imagery In Daily Life and the other one is a
novel....ehehe
3. Well another one perhaps to perform Umrah end of this year (sejuk sikit)

Hmmmm... dah Mei..sempat ke capai semua ni....InsyaAllah!

Burung But But

One fine afternoon, I saw a bird was hit by a car infront of me. So, I asked adik to stop and I went to look. It was burung but but - still alive and I brought it back.

After 3 days at home, finally the bird is fit to free and fly by its own......

Sehari Semalam Di Hospital

Mak Engku was there....... meneman-ing me all time :) Bawa buah, bantal ..... air :)

Kucing & Me Jalan-Jalan

Puan Sri Natasya yang gediks....














Setelah itu, bersantai santai di kolam, sambil makan buah buahan dari kebun sendiri... such a beautiful day