Bekfast

Salam semua!!!

Ni gambar gambar yang sempat di upload ketika ke Belfast - Giant Causeway

Sempat lagi ke Junction One - Shopping sakan!

Chewah chewah....

Kekekeke comel?

Adik dhada dengan baju PINK (aida..... dah menjangkit laaaa)

Tak sangka sama sekali dapat ke Belfast - Northern Part of Ireland. The city center is combination of Scottish and English with the contemporary structures. Cantik, but sometimes nampak crowded juga. On the way to the Giant Causeway - sceneries were beautiful that anyone cant resist to get their eyes over it. Memang cantik giler! Paling best, time nak balik, singgah di Junction One - apa lagi..... rombongan Che Kiah jadi giler lah!!!! Shop kasut CLARK sampai tak hengat! And my self, got 5 pairs of shoes!!!!!! CLARK okkay!!

My brother, friend and student

Hello again,

These are more pictures taken when we were in London - this visit was the warmest visit we had because I met my student - Kim in London - I was touched when he came and 'search' for us in London - hey - London is a big city (not really and not actually can make you lost in London) but he got his way to the Thames River and get to meet all of us!



"Geng Budak Baik" masa di sekolah - kecik je dulu dulu - dan nakal !!! but see what he is now.... a man, a father of three sons!

This picture makes me feel so old ' lah!

BIG BEN !

UK - RETAIL THERAPY kan Mak Engku?

This is the Georgian Door - kekekek cun tak?

Mak Engku selepas shop at Penneys - chewahhhh.. happy nya dia!
Tadaaaa...... happy family!

London - Ireland best place to do Retail Therapy after a long long work! We had this experience few times in UK. The best part is to carry many paper bags (I learnt this from adik dhada - she likes this so much - dont you ever try to assist her with her shopping bags - dia marah! kekeekkekke - sampai tertinggal lah 4 perfumes she bought in Paris!!! Nasib ler dapat claim VAT - tak ler rasa rugi sangat!) And this time, was the merrier because Aida and Yazed came from Dublin to join us.

London Trip (Part 1)

Hello friends,

Finally, we are back from a long long vacation to Europe - we started our journey from 3 May-13 May to London - Paris - Rome - Vatican - Dublin -Belfast and back to London - Malaysia. Alhamdulillah, everthing went as we planned, except for few things that traveller usually experienced. All together, there were 1300 plus pictures were taken! Quater of it, left in Dublin - tak sempat nak upload kat photobucket - only 200 saja yg sempat -

Got a chance to drive classic taxi in LONDON

Menyaksikan Upacara Pertukaran Shift Kerja - di Burmingham Palace - Macam tak percaya I was there!

Mak Engku and Pak Engku - Idola - Both of them orang yang paling kuat berjalan - and I really mean it - BERJALAN - orang semua dah kerut kerut muka sakit kaki jalan.... dia orang steady je!!

Ni kat Victoria Station London.

There are more pictures in the camera and handphones - will upload more for you all. And thanks to adik who's a great planner for this trip and all other trips. Aida and Yazed, thanks to both of you too! My self - thanks jugak laaaa.... for being a good daughter to Pak Engku and Mak Engku (kekekkekekekekekek - betul nih... dia orang yang cakap!)

Kekekekekek.... Adik Dhada Punya

Entah macam mana browse pc ni jumpa pulak lukisan adik dhada dulu dulu... hmmmm I think benda ni tahun 1999 atau 2000 kot? Lebih kurang laa... she had the time to belajar melukis. So, these are all hers:

Garangnya mata kucing dia......... tapi kucing macam yang ada kat umah.. nama dia ADEL.

This is cute - macam garfield kan??? Tapi dia tulis Merlin - we had a cat named Merlin - Kucing Pak Engku- When Pak Engku was away for his ovc trip, Merlin tak turun dari para hingga Pak Engku pulang...... cute kan??

This was jotted as 'Anggerik Desa' cheewaahhhh......

Make Over

I was a little bit busy lately but alhamdulillah, things are over now - and I am crossing my fingers to make it happen - its not in my hands now.... but HE will decide...(huh... what am I talking about huh? tak apa laaa.... kalau tak faham buat buat anggukkan kepala je la yea)

Cantik tak??? Susun atur bunga ni hasil dari tangan adik. Hmmm main cucuk je nih, tapi dalam gambar cantik pulak.Sampai pasu Brbie Doll dia pun jadi vase.

OK. This is my work - nak ber konsepkan Country English, kami korbankan almari kayu. Previously our concept was kayu - but now dah tukar taste - di ruang kedua.

Buat sendiri!

Gigih nih...

Tada.................. inilah hasilnya!

YoU ArE BeAuTiFuL

I never thought that I would achieve what I want - especially something that never can ever come back as the time passes by. But in order to keep myself on the right track, now I learnt to spend some time with someone who appreciates just the way I am.

It's mind boggling to me that so many people outside, who may and may not experience the same situation as I gone though or perhaps they just make such great lengths trying to look like, talk like or act like someone completely different from who they really are. Why? Just to CONFORM with the society, with the people whom they thought belongs to them. But I just need to be comfortable being real around others. BE LIKE WHAT I AM TODAY - Even the society has given some guidelines for men and women, and being or act like one, but it does not make me more beautiful and unique. Thanks to people around me who always sending positive massages that unknowingly it has become the most effective emotional therapeutic moment because those messages allow me to get comfortable having fun again without the pressures to conform.

I wonder if I am being too philosophical lately....(bersabar je la yek.... blog den, sukati den lah ea)

Maturity

I have been watching news lately especially on the 'peralihan kuasa' and what I could observe is the many of us lack of emotional maturity. Sometimes I wonder if I have to laugh at or just kept it to myself. But emotional maturity is a quality that politicians must possess because by having emotional maturity here means one should be able to accept the reality of life (people and things) as they are without them to be other than that. So, there woudnt be any backfire / attacking others personal issues. Politics remain politics and personal issues will remain as personal issues.

This is supported in the Al Quran when Allah says that once a man has reach his maturity and full grown, Allah will granted him wisdom, knowledge and reward those who do good to others (28:14 “When he reached maturity and strength, we endowed him with wisdom and knowledge. We thus reward the righteous”). By saying this, it is clear that having the emotional maturity also a special gift from Allah and it based on our individual growth, time and experience. From my understanding, as a leader, he/she should have the emotional maturity so he/she will be able to perform his/her duty not only to Allah, but to mankind – in other words, fully functioning in a socio-politic profession.

The emotion maturity provides information that can help us eliminate the mental and emotional drain caused by confusion, stress, overwhelm, anxiety and frustration. Hence, the guiding of our emotion is so critical as the Quran says: (64:11) Nothing happens to you except in accordance with God's will. Anyone who believes in God, He will guide his heart. God is fully aware of all things.

Remember my dear leaders, you are there because of the society and dont forget that your life is part of the society's lifes - THINK BEFORE YOU ACT and SAY! oppss..... by the way, this is not only meant for you... but your family members too! Watch them closely!!

Wierdo

BOLA JARING PERINGKAT DESA

Hmmm have you guys seen buffalo playing bola jaring? ekekek I saw this on the way home. Kelakar laa pulak kan...

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Today is the day that I feel so much relax after many many nights under a great pressure. Alhamdulillah, the path that I have taken is nearly to its finishing line. May Allah assists me and guides me all the way

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New PM, TPM and Ministries.. hoping for the best scenario in the arena.

Standard? Evolved?

This is my favourite spot even though I RARELY watch TV! We have astro but only switch on when Mak Engku/Pak Engku came or other relatives. We mostly came back late from work or we chat with bibik in the kitchen, swim till late... then, tidur!

Its a Phillips set - tak de la mahal... tapi, sedap mata memandang.... bila beli? Huh... dah 5 bulan dah pun.... tapi masih tak familiar dengan functions dia..

Ok lah... and while I was uploading the image, I read this somewhere this morning... regarding achieveing happiness in life. Perhaps you guys can add more from these lists...



1 Ketaqwaan

No doubt, this is the most important foundation - my sister once told me.. IKHLAS untuk buat apa juga.... without expecting any returns. She said, IKHLAS is just like when you spitt, you forget where, when & why you did that. Does it make sense??

2 Kasih sayang

This is what I have been searching for many many years. I pray and pray to Allah to give mak and abah... a family that I can return to. A happy life that I can lead my life in peace. I need not to ronda ronda in the shop lots during Hari Raya... what I need is a HOME! SINCERE LOVE and CARED by others. Alhamdulillah, after many many years - more than for about 36 years...... I got it ALL !!! THANKS ALLAH!

3 Kesetiaan

Hmmm... this is hard to explain. Setia? Must be foundation to that.. And for all, its hard to get a true friend that can laugh with us and cry with us... not laught at us.. or cry at us... And Kesetiaan is all about satisfying the inner needs. Kalau the inner needs tu difahami, insya allah, setia will come along. And I am glad to have a family that really setia with the family ties. They teach me to appreciate my own life .. how? To be LOYALTY..

4 Komunikasi dialogis

I do appreciate all types of communication... and because of communication'lah I am what I am today. Dulu, I was a person yang tak suka nak explain - and explanation is part of communication skill. I used to mengamuk when people do not understand what I am trying to say.. until one day, adik told me that I have to explain to others what I want. Furthur more I am 95% right brain... and now, alhamdulillah... I can explain to others what I want so they will understand my needs. Tak de ler makan hati jer....


5 Keterbukaan

This is another thing. Mak Engku and Pak Engku have this. They accept me for what I am. They are open and want to listen (open tapi tak nak listen wat per kan??)

6 Kejujuran

Yeah.. this is important too. Jujur... cam ner nak explain bab ni ya.. oh ya.. One thing that I notice that I will say what I think I need to say. It may be hurt but it will make a different to others. JUJUR is the key for all kindness. Once tak jujur, once menipu, org dulu dulu kata "siakap senohong gelama ikan duri, cakap bohong, lama lama mencuri!"

7 Kesabaran

Waurrrhhhhhh.... sabar. Complex, and abstract... But I learnt how to be sabar. Insya allah.. Ada psychologist kat umah kan..... so tengah training nih! eekekekekeke

What's your opinion about this? Perhaps you can share your few cents here!

More about MK and ML

These are some photos of MK's day out with us. He was playing the cars and ML was chit-chatting with us. As far as we were with ML, she only talked about her life, experiences and knowledge org dulu-dulu eg: kalau boleh masa berjalan-jalan especially at night, bawa sedikit kapur sireh.... the hantus and jembalangs 'takut' dengan kapur sireh. I dont know what people says but I think ML can be a good listener and advisor too. Cuma mungkin the youngers just lack of interests in the olders and they forget that some day, one day, they will be like one........

Who says that MK is reserved when at his first meeting?

Hmmmmm yummy - sodap ya MK???

Stress?

Last few weeks my sister and I worked so hard. Its nothing much to do with the 'peralihan kuasa' but perhaps ter-effect-lah juga. Why? All the works and responsibilities carried on our shoulder must be go on no matter how the political turmoil may interfere our lives. And the 'kuasa' that we are looking at here is the 'kuasa' of knowledge - exploring the human mind and thinking -

'Kuasa' here is more on internal satisfaction. When we have the internal satisfaction, we can contribute to others. And this happens most in individuals who WORK for others, LIVE for others and share their HAPPINESS with others. I want to be like that..... my sister too. And both of us share the same ambition, same mission and same vision.

But we need some extra strength. The strength from INSIDE. The strength that could give us the 'kuasa' to do all these.... and that comes from prayers.

Huhuhuhu........ tak mau den jadi cam ni... mampuihhhh...........


Alhamdulillah, at the moment, we are under control. Mak Engku and Pak Engku always check on us. They are our Blood Pressure Life Machine. They are like the breath we take. Their prayers are our heart beat.

Kalau idak, kene laa ikut nasihat doktor kek bawah nih....... tak mau den..

Another Day Out

This is ML's only grandson-this was a week out for ML and her grandson-normally, during this time no one can ganggu ML because she will be in a 'honeymoon' mood. One thing that realised during this day out with ML and MK (ML's grandson) is that both of them enjoying themselves especially MK. And according to ML, MK is not easy to please-he will reserve himself before he shows his trueself but time dah tak de tunggu-tunggu dah.

We picked up ML after work - about 6.30pm, MK was malu-malu but he terus salam me and adik. When he saw our car, he said:

MK: This is KIA. I dont like KIA (dia masuk dalam kereta)

MK: I never been in this car - its like my car - but its ....... (apa ye dia kata... tapi maksud dia, kete ni rendah) pastu dia tengok belakang....dia kata:

MK: Oh... its a little bit longer than mine..

------session ended with him, ML took over the konti-----

tetibe je MK tanya adik:

MK: Where is the break?

Adik: ---- dia pun explain laa... siap tunjuk demo lagi-- ye lah... nak tunjuk KIA pun ada break! (kelakar laah tengok adik bertonyeh dengan budak kecik)

MK syok sbb adik ikut jalan dalam... quite hilly ...so dia kata

MK: we go up and down.....up...and down....

----sampai rumah-----

ML tunjukkan our swimming pool and MK said:

MK: Ours are bigger ....... (dengan slang dia...kekek tension ML dengar ekekek)

ML tunjukkan the studio pulak.....

MK: Thas's not toys - they are instrument...(kene sebijik ML kat cucu dia)

------ So I showed him my car collections and he starts to get excited----- and after that.. he became himself- active giler!!!-----

We had dinner - bibik masak spegeti - MK makan... he said

MK: its too spicy....... (sambil minum air-makan lagi - ML kata, kalau ML masak pedas, dia langsung tak nak makan... ni makan pulak)

ML: its too hot for you MK?

MK: its not hot lah... its spicy! (kekeke kene lagi ML)

bibik keluarkan buah.... ML kata MK tak suka mempelam, MK kata:

MK: I like this. (mempelam)...... (so MK makan sorang-sorang, buat smiley face... macam macam... mmg dia enjoyed the food)

ML: Kemain ko ek... aku beli pelam, ko tak cuit pun...kat sini boleh kata suke pulak! (kekeke ML tensen...kekkekkeek)

----adik tunjuk collection kereta dia dalam almari --- punya laa seronok si MK ---

Adik:These are all my car collections - they are miniatures

MK: (mendengar dgn tekun bila adik exlain dari mana dia dapat kereta kereta kecik ni semua.....until he saw a 'strange' car to his eyes- tetibe dia ketawa) Look at this car - the tyres are big hahahahahah

------ML took over the konti------- mak/abah called

------MK main kereta--------- out of the sudden dia melompat, naik atas adik, peluk adik.!!!! sbb???? nampak kucing! ohhhhhh MK takut kucing rupa nyer!!

After solat magrib, we went to alamanda and in the car MK jadi sangat aktif...bercerita, menyanyi.... cute sangat (CN-jangan jelesssss)

Sampai di alamanda, he hold my hand (iskk.... pelik jugak... nak dia pegang haku nih.)

When I have to wait for ML, he ran to adik, and pegang adik - nyanyi nyanyi - lompat lompat - entah apa dia berbual dengan adik - tinggal kan ML..... so I walked with ML, MK with adik holding hands..

From behind sometimes we saw MK and adik was whispering something... tak tau apa... and he jumped, sang, jumped...

------dah dapat apa yg dihajati---- we stop and had soem ice cream......

-------dalam kereta, MK was so excited, lupa dgn barang yg dia beli tadi, and he played with me... siap wrestling lagi dalam kereta!!! ........

------ sampai rumah ML -------- dia bye bye.... and give us his cute hugsss...........

ada lagi few pics in our camera.... cuma tak sempat dl - perhaps nanti lah...

This is my ENGINE

This is the ONLY cat that my sister loves most - after ABANG. She had a very sad moment when ABANG passed away - and that time, ABANG listened to her - "kalau abang nak mati, mati kat rumah tau...akak boleh tanam abang... ada bunga" hmmmmm LUCKY that she didnt proceed with her 'noble' intention to 'KERAS' kan ABANG!!!!!!!


And me too, as usual, terpengaruh dengan kasih sayang adik pada ENGINE - dari geram - because both of us will always berebut bantal - since ENGINE likes to sleep on my pillow!!!! and as if that is HIS !!!!

ENGINE too, will drink my water beside my bed - HE is CONDITIONED to drink the water from my cawan - even though I have put a special mangkuk which muat muat muka dia... tapi tak nak jugak.... iskkkkk GERAM DENGAN DIA!!!

And today, HE came back WITHOUT his 'neck-tie' ...... mana dia tinggalkan agaknya!!!!!!! and akak promised him to get a new 'neck-tie' -- and what I could say is... EEEEIIII - mengada-ngadanya !!

But I still love ENGINE - he is still cute... and my little BUDDY at home !!! Meeeaaaoowwwwww
kekekekekkekekeke

When the sandals getting bigger

I dont know why I choose this topic. But as you grow older, your feet are getting bigger. And thats mean, you have to get a new pair of shoes/sandals every now and then. Does this rule goes along with our ambitions? Are our ambitions grow bigger and bigger or it will remain as they are until we manage to achieve what we want to achieve? Any ideas? Perhaps you can share yours.....

Same old stories???

Roses are red my love

Violets are blue

Sugar is sweet my love

But not

As sweet as you

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Remember this piece? I used to sing this song... and whistle it all day long..... and until today, its in my juke box.

And lately, I met some of my old lost relatives, and friends. Some never changed. But the others... changed. Why? And until now I have no answer to it. Even if I know the answers, let it be floating in my mind. And some of the questions asked to me dont make sense at all. Why they asked such questions...... But these dialogues will remain as part of my life jokes:

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Antara soalan-soalan yang ditanya bila mula mula jumpa.

"Kau dah habis degree ke belom"

dalam hati.......macam nak cakap, tak tau ke org dah buat PhD pun!!

"Aku dah poi mekah dah"

maksudnya?? should I call you Hajah? or what?

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Questions related to car:

"Kete ni ko beli cash ke hutang?"

OMG!!!!! apa jenis soalan laa nih...

"Kete sapa ni??"

adui...... macam nak hempuk pun ada.. dalam hati, tak kan laaa kete sewa kot???

Jumpa-jumpa je, terus cakap;

"Aku dah tukar kete dah.... aku pakai PERSONA"

hek eleeehh........... (dalam hati je laaa)

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Related to my house;

"Mana ko dapek duit boli umah beso beso nih"

lerr.... usaha laaa... tak kan duduk diam duit jatuh dari langit??

"Ko dah beli rumah ke? Buat apa beli rumah? Kan belum kawin?

Laaaa......tak kan la org kawen je boleh beli rumah???? - yg kelakar tu, siap tanya lagi:

"Kat umah ko tu ada pinggan mangkuk tak? dapur ada tak? katil?kerusi semua ada?"

Ya Rabbi....... ni yg tak jadi ngaku kawan nih....

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About my work:

Rindu belum hilang lagi, tiba tiba terus tanya.......

"Ko keje kat mana sekarang?"

So, bila jawab keje kat ********** terus kata;

"Boleh laa tolong ******. Laki aku ada ***** nanti ko tolong ******"

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Kecik hati kadang-kadang...... and I learnt that some people dont really IKHLAS nak jumpa kita.... as P.Ramlee said "Baik ada makna haaaaa"

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Lain-lain hal:

"Sopan ko ye sekarang ni"

hummm....... abis, you want me to yell at you???

"Ko dulu tak pandai kan?"

and you aspect me not to be what I am today???

"Ko ni takyah laa sopan sangan cakap dengan den...."

Laaa....aku mmg sopan laa... walau tak sebeberapa.... they just dont get it!!!

"Kau dulu masa sekolah tak pandai kan?"

Hek eleeh....... cita zaman dulu-dulu..... dalam citer hindustan hero kalah dulu beb!

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I wonder WHY people asked me this question again and again?? AM I TOO STUPID?? Come'on.... I was alone, lived alone, no parental supervision, and yet, I managed to take care of myself - tak laaaa jadi 'left out' masa sekolah... and most important thing is... I MAKE MY LIFE FAR MORE BETTER THAN OTHERS !!!! PhD holder beb!!!!!

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Pelik kan manusia nih??? I have better life now, I have mom, dad, sister, brother, sister in law, nenek, ucu, utih, and many others who loves me so much and accept me as

WHAT I AM, WHO I AM and not

what I have!!!

I love you all and thanks for not being pathetic like the others!

Vincent

When I drove to work this morning... I listened to this song. It touches my inner insight - perhaps related to the picture I took yesterday.....

Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

The line says :"Look out on a summer's day." .... which is an actual view point, it is strictly from his mind. These are references to other Van Gogh paintings.
Flaming Flowers: The Sunflower Series
Swirling Clouds: Starry Night
Field of Amber Grain: Wheat Field with Crows
Weathered Faces: The Potato Eaters

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

This is Van Gogh's tragic Death - Could not imagine how he cut off his ears - because of schizoprenia..... and he came back to his room... and finnally took his life - Van Gogh attempted suicide by shooting himself in the chest, which ultimately led to his death two days later.Even though he loved painting, his paintings could never love him back.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Van Gogh - Knowing his paintings, drawings and writings - they are everlasting and will never "forget" the style that created them. They are Van Gogh's eyes that watch the world. This is all metaphorically speaking though.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Finally we come to the conclusion of realizing Van Gogh's eternal struggle with insanity.
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,How you suffered for your sanity,How you tried to set them free.They would not listen, they're not listening still.Perhaps they never will...

We have 2 moons in a night??????

This was taken in one fine evening.... I like it so much!

Funny things around us..

This is funny - hmmm may be not for others, but at least these pictures make me smile.

And this is a good ads. Eheheh reverse psychology huh??

Lama Lama

Aint got time to do all these favourite things to do.... I need to manage my self so that I have time for my hobbies... Huhh... work too hard lately..

Classic Rocking Chair has arrived!!!!!

Hmm so much so I was inflenced by my sister - she loves Classic English Concept - she has this in her mind - a house painted in white, lots of fresh flowers, white covers and furniture, fluffy sofa pillows, patch works, rose and more roses!, lavender (she has this in our little garden)../and her last wish was - CLASSIC ROCKING CHAIR. She didnt really looking forward to have this in this point of time... but she ALWAYSSSS talk about it..... and it's STUCK in my head!!! And as if, I pulak yang ber ia ia hendakkan benda ni .... iskkk..... (hmmmm I wonder of she has been using her 'hypnotising' thing... to me...) And wallooooppppp....... I got his via e-bay, called the salesperson... within two weeks, dah sampai - and of course laa... A SUPRISE for my sister!!!!

Masih dalam kotak - I worried if it comes on as DIY - but nguper nguper nya... pasang udah..

Dalam kotak, ada lagi balut.

This what I meant by Classical Rocking Chair.